And I Love Her

Salmon swim upstream to have their babies. It is a long and difficult journey, and sometimes they get bashed against the rocks. Adoption is similar, and I feel like we've just been bashed up against a rock. Kasia's agency feels like it is in her best interest to re-list her as available, in order to get her a family as soon as possible. We do not blame them, and told them we understand the concept of giving up a child to do what is best for them. As adoptive parents, that is what we are constantly asking birth parents to do. This all came about because they asked if we had a travel date for Serbia yet. We don't ...and we don't even have a time frame. This is extremely frustrating for us, but it is not something we are in control of. We love little Kasia, and hope she can find a family soon. We also hope with some part of us, that she will still be available when we get home from Serbia, so we can re-apply for her. I hope this all doesn't come out wrong. It wasn't the "big, bad agency" vs. the spencer family. It was a mutual decision based on what is best for Kasia. We have no problem with the agency, and truly hope to work with them in the future, either for Kasia's adoption, or for another child. But we are still hurting. A girl we love may find another family. And for anyone reading this that may be interested in pursuing her adoption--- don't feel bad, or guilty. Please, give this beautiful girl a permanent home. For anyone who doesn't wish to pursue her adoption, please pray for her to find the family she needs.